..To speak of change,
Ok, so I know it’s been ages since I’ve posted anything, and for my oh so few fans..I apologize. I do have an excuse though, and that is fear. I’ve finally been coming to terms with who I’ve turned into over the past year or two, the new me that until now I’ve been afraid to face. I’ve denied that I’ve changed, but I admit now that I have. I’m admitting that I’m completely terrified and overwhelmed by everything, but I am ready to face it all now. I realize that things have changed, I’m no longer that awkward sixteen-year-old that I once was…and now that I’ve faced it, I need other people in my life to as well.
I’ve made bad choices, but they were right for me at the time. In fact, if I could go back in time I would make all of the same choices. I’ve been described recently as someone who used to be very confident but over the past few weeks hasn’t been. So, I’ve decided to be that confident again and to set my mind on what I want and go for it. In light of this inspiration, I recently walked away from someone who has been a part of my life since I was that awkward sixteen-year-old. I walked away when I realized that sometimes…well sometimes love isn’t enough of a reason to stay where you aren’t wanted.
Anyway, that’s me for now. Still unemployed and still struggling with my ever-changing identity. I’ll post more soon.
“I guess higher education doesn’t always mean smarter choices.”
Auf weidershen, xx <3
